Beane-Cat

Hey! You know, I was feeling like maybe I should post another update journal. My last one's just been sitting there with a depressing title for almost three years. Speaking of depressing, let's get that out of the way first. Did I get any better, mentally?? Kind of. I still would rather be dead than alive, but over the last couple years I've gotten better at managing it, I suppose. It's a bit hard to explain, but I've kind of just hit a point of acceptance that I'll never be well in the head--and with that acceptance, I can kind of... get on with my existence. I don't know if that makes any sort of sense, but it is what it is!! Objectively, my life is damn good. There's things about my living situation that make it incredibly stressful, but at least I have working plumbing! Definitely, there's a lot to be thankful for. Like my job! I love my job. Don't get me wrong, there's PLENTY to complain about there, that's like a subject in and of itself... but at the end of the day, I do still